点评:I want to start by saying that this was genuinely one of the most profound and meaningful experiences of my entire life. But I also want to be honest in this review because I think it will help others know what to expect.
I booked a 5 day retreat at Selva Madre and was told there would be around 3 other participants joining. When I arrived I was the only one there. For the first couple of days this was genuinely challenging. Spending extended hours alone in the jungle with no other guests to talk to, share experiences with or decompress with after ceremonies is tough. If you're someone who feeds off human connection and conversation, going in as a solo participant is something to mentally prepare for.
There is also a language barrier with Don Lucho (Luis Senior) which made integration conversations after ceremonies difficult at times. He is a warm and incredibly special human being but communicating deeply in English was challenging. Luis Junior however speaks good English and whenever I had the chance to speak with him he was patient, understanding and genuinely invested in my experience. When I expressed my frustrations and disappointment he listened and responded with real care and insight.
Now for the experience itself. My first two ceremonies were milder than I expected. The first ceremony is more of an introductory ceremony to see how the medicine works for you. You enter the temple and sit patiently waiting and watching the shamans before receiving a small shot of ayahuasca. The shamans then begin singing their icaros and the entire ceremony lasts around 2 hours, which initially confused me as I had read online that many ceremonies last 6 hours or more. After the ceremony the shamans recommend going to your room, which I also found odd initially. I had some music on my phone which helped, lucky that I did. The first ceremony I felt the medicine nicely and after we left the temple it felt like I was in an almost dreamlike, tranquil state.
The second ceremony is meant to be more intense and I went in expecting exactly that, more purging and a more profound experience. I had slightly more ayahuasca than the first night but after about an hour I still wasn't feeling what I had expected and asked for more. They gave me another double shot or so and after another half hour I still couldn't feel much and was given a little more. Three cups in total and I still wasn't where I expected to be. Looking back I think I was really in my head this ceremony, spiralling with questions as to why I wasn't feeling much, comparing my experience to what I had read online. I was extremely frustrated and disappointed and even questioned whether I was getting what I came for but I now understand that was all part of the process.
The day between the second and third ceremony was a rest day. Anderson took me by tuk tuk to a local animal sanctuary where I saw different types of animals and some beautiful butterflies as it doubles as a butterfly sanctuary. Luis Junior also took me for a swim in the river which was a refreshing and grounding experience. I also had two traditional plant bath ceremonies during my stay, one performed by Don Lucho and one by Anderson, both of which were deeply meaningful rituals that I had never experienced anything like before. We also visited the local village of Padre Cocha which gave me a real sense of the community and culture surrounding Selva Madre.
Then came the third ceremony. They gave me a full cup this time and I felt it nicely. I had a little more after about an hour. What I experienced that night, during one of the most intense lightning and thunderstorms I have ever witnessed in my life, was extraordinary. I lay there in my room with the storm raging around me, completely on the medicine, and had some of the most profound thoughts, visions and emotional releases of my life.
Looking back now I understand why the solitude was necessary. Being alone with your thoughts in nature for those days, as uncomfortable as it was, created the exact container the medicine needed to work. There were no distractions, no one else's energy to absorb, just me, the jungle, the icaros and the medicine.
Don Lucho and his family, Luis Junior, Anderson and Miguel the chef, are a special group of people. The food was good considering we were on a strict dieta the entire time. The setting is peaceful, raw and authentic. This is not a luxury resort, it is a real, traditional Amazonian healing centre run by an indigenous family who have been doing this for generations. That authenticity is exactly what makes it special.
If you are considering Selva Madre my advice is this, go in with zero expectations, prepare yourself mentally for solitude, and trust the process even when it feels like nothing is happening. The medicine works on its own timeline, not yours.
I am grateful to Don Lucho, Luis Junior, Anderson and the whole Selva Madre family for holding space for me during those 5 days. A truly unforgettable experience.
翻译:首先我想说,这真是我人生中最深刻、最有意义的经历之一。但我也想在这篇评论中坦诚相待,因为我觉得这能帮助其他人了解会遇到什么情况。
我预订了Selva Madre的五日静修营,当时被告知会有大约三位其他学员参加。但当我到达时,却只有我一个人。头两天确实很煎熬。长时间独自待在丛林里,没有其他客人可以交谈、分享经历,或者在仪式结束后一起放松,这确实很不容易。如果你是一个需要人际交往和交流的人,那么独自参加静修营需要做好心理准备。
此外,我和Don Lucho(老路易斯)之间存在语言障碍,这使得仪式后的交流有时比较困难。他是一位热情而又非常特别的人,但用英语进行深入沟通确实很困难。不过,小路易斯的英语很好,每次有机会和他交谈时,他都非常耐心、理解,并且真心实意地关心我的体验。当我表达我的沮丧和失望时,他认真倾听,并以真诚的关怀和深刻的洞察力给予回应。
现在来说说体验本身。我的前两次仪式比预期的要温和。第一次仪式更像是一个入门仪式,目的是了解药物对你的作用。你进入神庙,耐心地坐着等待,观察萨满们的仪式,然后接受一小剂死藤水。之后,萨满们开始吟唱他们的伊卡洛斯颂歌,整个仪式持续约2小时,这让我一开始感到困惑,因为我在网上看到很多仪式都要持续6小时甚至更久。仪式结束后,萨满建议你回房间,我一开始也觉得很奇怪。幸好我手机里有音乐,这很有帮助。第一次仪式后,我很好地感受到了药物的作用,离开神庙后,我感觉自己仿佛置身于梦境般的宁静状态。
第二次仪式应该会更加强烈,我原本也期待着更彻底的净化和更深刻的体验。我喝的死藤水比第一晚略多一些,但大约一个小时后,我仍然没有达到预期的效果,于是要求再来一些。他们又给我加了两份左右,又过了半个小时,我仍然没什么感觉,于是又加了一些。总共喝了三杯,我仍然没有达到预期的状态。现在回想起来,我觉得那次仪式我完全沉浸在自己的思绪中,不断地问自己为什么没什么感觉,还把自己的经历和网上看到的描述进行比较。我当时非常沮丧和失望,甚至怀疑自己是否得到了想要的东西,但现在我明白,这一切都是整个过程的一部分。
第二次和第三次仪式之间的一天是休息日。安德森用嘟嘟车带我去了一个当地的动物保护区,在那里我看到了各种各样的动物,还有一些美丽的蝴蝶,因为那里也是一个蝴蝶保护区。路易斯·朱尼尔还带我去河里游泳,那真是一次令人神清气爽、心境平和的体验。在逗留期间,我还体验了两次传统的植物浴仪式,一次由唐·卢乔主持,一次由安德森主持。这两次仪式都意义非凡,是我从未经历过的。我们还参观了当地的帕德雷·科查村,让我真切地感受到了塞尔瓦·马德雷周围的社区和文化。
接下来是第三次仪式。这次他们给了我满满一杯,感觉很不错。大约一个小时后,我又喝了一些。那天晚上,我经历了有生以来最强烈的雷电风暴之一,那晚的经历非同寻常。我躺在房间里,周围风暴肆虐,完全沉浸在药效之中,经历了人生中最深刻的思考、幻象和情感释放。
现在回想起来,我明白了为什么独处是必要的。在那几天里,独自一人在大自然中思考,尽管有些不自在,却创造了药效发挥作用所需的完美环境。没有干扰,没有其他人的能量需要吸收,只有我、丛林、伊卡洛斯颂歌和药效。
唐·卢乔和他的家人,路易斯·朱尼尔、安德森以及厨师米格尔,都是非常特别的人。考虑到我们全程都在严格控制饮食,食物的味道已经很不错了。这里的环境宁静、原始而纯粹。这不是一家豪华度假村,而是一个真正的、传统的亚马逊疗愈中心,由一个世代传承此道的土著家族经营。正是这份纯粹,让它如此特别。
如果你正在考虑入住塞尔瓦·马德雷,我的建议是:不要抱有任何期待,做好独处的心理准备,即使感觉什么都没发生,也要相信这个过程。疗愈自有其节奏,而非你的预期。
我衷心感谢唐·卢乔、路易斯·朱尼尔、安德森以及整个塞尔瓦·马德雷大家庭,感谢他们在这五天里给予我的关怀和支持。一次真正令人难忘的经历。